So, yesterday, PD discussed how we track our progress in our Soul Journey. How are you doing with that? Do you track it by the blessings or lack thereof in your life? Do you track it by your own personal inner calm? Are you talking to God about your progress? Talkback here. We would love to hear your thoughts.
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I felt pretty compelled after yesterday's message to send Dave an email, I also told David and Kylie I would blog it.
There was something that PD said in his message that really spoke to me. When he spoke about how Job had terrible things happen to him, and it wasn’t as a punishment, and it wasn’t because God “wanted” bad things to happen, I really connected with that.
Since July, I’ve been battling with this. I felt a lump in my neck. For two month I didn’t have insurance so I just waited… letting it grow. When I finally did get insurance, I went to the doctor and no medication has changed it. I’ve met with an ENT and on November 25th at 7:30 in the morning I’ll be having it removed in order for a biopsy to be performed. I’ve been told one of two things will be determined from the biopsy – a viral infection or lymphoma. This is the third time in my life that I’m going through a cancer scare and the second time I will be having a lymph node removed from my neck.
Since July, I have been desperately trying to figure out, “why me? Why again?” No amount of crying or comforting from my family has alleviated this feeling. A few weeks ago at a Cobalt meeting, someone said “walking by faith means not needing to know why.” That hit hard – and so I’ve stopped asking why me, but have still wondered why again… did I do something, or did I not do something – and that’s the reason this is being allowed to happen again.
The message yesterday brought me to some kind of closure – it made me realize that I may have done something, or I may have done nothing at all. I cried after the message, because I truly felt that was my "answer."
Now I don’t wonder why at all – all I know is God will get me through this with the help of my friends and my family. There is no lesson to be learned, only a battle to be won.
I was out of town yesterday so didn't hear the message and consequently can't respond to that...but I can say..BRAVE SHARING AND WELL SAID, NIKKI! The best part is the last, "There is no lesson to be learned, only a battle to be won!" Excellent thought! Sounds like you're the poster child for progress tracked! Thanks for telling your compelling story...lots for the rest of us to learn from it! :-)
Nikki, I'm with you. There are things in my life I've battled not viewing as "punishment." Endless self-analysis seeing nothing that I could have controlled or changed that would have made the circumstances any different.
Yesterday was an epiphany for me too.
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